As of late, I have been struggling with depression. Part of it is not feeling productive. Part of it is the fact that my schedule hasn’t worked out. I have been sleeping until noon and going to bed at 8 p.m. That doesn’t leave me much time to be productive. Just reading for my homework takes up a fourth of my day with this sleep schedule.
I decided I am not going to try to force myself to wake up early. I am just going to stay up later to increase my productivity.
Maybe too much sleep could be a factor in the depression. However, I don’t think this is the case since I haven’t fallen asleep until 1 or 2 in the morning even though I go to bed at 8.
It is just stressful to be depressed, and stress makes the depression worse in a vicious cycle.
Part of the depression might be not listening to as much music or a bunch of other factors. It is a combination of a lot of things. And I am doing my best to work through it.
But depression makes it extra hard to get up the motivation to write for this blog every day (even with scheduled posts), write for my novel, write for Coffee House Writers, Functionally Fictional, and the West Oak, OR Character Blog. Plus I have to work on school work which means forcing myself to read 20 pages of a terribly dull grammar textbook every day for the next six and a half weeks, providing I don’t skip any days. Plus I have to work on all of the assignments in addition to that.
So I am struggling to come up with ideas and am trying to keep my head above water. With that being said, I will do my best to continue to post every day.